WHY?!

just asking.. why are some people cant hardly forget my past?! oh well almost all peeps in the office.. haaay I hate it actually. I want everything to be quiet but then again they keep on insisting things which are so irrelevant. haaay.. well its june so just so to refresh my mind, we would've been celebrating our 1st year on the 8th.. but well.. that's how it goes.. honestly, I want to END everything! i am so damn TIRED! i cant hardly imagine the reason why.. why am I having this experience after the break up? isn't it ironic?! I am the one hurt and yet I am the one being chased... well I know god has a plan for everyone and I know he has something for me.. I am and I will wait for it to come..

lazy!

lazy me! haha i dont want to work today... I feel like I want to go out and have fun with friends! hmmm where will I go? who's with me? ahahaha! Its Friday, I should have something to do later... where? where? where? I just got a pop from my cousin marge and she said she's not available on Sunday anymore.. well we should have a swimming on sunday eh sheeeshh!... hmmm maybe we'll just find time next month so we can all go out. I missed hanging out with my cousins.... because before we used to go out almost every week! haaay we're all busy and right now we can only have one short dinner and nothing follows..

LSS: After the Love has Gone

what am i up for this week? i dont know yet honestly.. well this past few days I've been praying and praying that somehow and someday I can fully say "i moved on"... weird feeling... sometimes i miss that someone and sometimes I don't... maybe its all because he has been part of my life. He was the first guy who has been really part of my life--my daily routine.. well lately i've been hooked up to earth, wind and fire's song "after the love has gone"... i don't know maybe I can fully relate to this song... coz now its "just yesterday" is all we have... every time we see each other here at the office its like we are both strangers and I can't blame myself of having this feeling because yes i am still hurting... everyone is saying he is not worthy for me.. well i know and i agree but the fact is i loved him and now I am making myself believe that he is indeed unworthy of everything. For the past 10 months I was terribly happy. I actually feel loved. I just dont know why everything changed. haaayyy God please help me.

indeed!

happy.. that's the best way to describe my feelings right now. I don't know why but I feel like i have forgiven that someone. yes indeed too fast huh? well that's me and I am proud of it.. i know and agree that I can only move on if I learned to forgive that someone who happened to be my worst nightmare. yes I am tough and that someone made me stronger than ever. I want everything in my life to be settled again--i want to regain my true happiness. officially happy now. thank God! I know everything will be perfectly fine everything in His time.

hey someone! super thank you. that's what i keep on telling you before and I am telling this again to you now. Thank you for making me stronger by saying goodbye. ;)

monday ;)

good morning! hmm what's in store for me this week? i dunno. maybe same old shit! o well i had a blast this long weekend. Last thursday, i went out with friends.. ahh that was fun! super!!! i guess I am now enjoying my life of being single wahahh! well thank you to dayle, ann, pierre and mike for at least making my night happy. we were all drunk! lol! haaayyy Im still praying that one day i will just wake up and say to myself... "im so ok"... im looking forward to that. pls pray for me. :)

attachment issues

I just came back from dinner with karen, EJ and joebel. Why? simply because it's my super friend's ABSi farewell dinner. Haay... 'twas fun! as in super fun! that was also the first time I had dinner with karen and EJ... such a juicy night.. got so many juicy chikas from them! wahahahahah! tsk! anyway.. seriously speaking, just this morning I was actually telling joebel that we are planning for some sort of "inuman session" but yeah she doesn't want to... haaay so we just settled for a simple lunch with dads, ariel, rene and crystal...then dinner with EJ and karen. I thought that was just a simple dinner but then again when we reached the parking lot.. tadahhhh!!! we were all crying! god! i hate goodbyes! I know she'll just be somewhere in Makati but still im gonna miss her. i will miss her BIG TIME! i never thought we'll be this close. she never left me especially during those days which yes I am 101% down. haaayyy well i guess i always have this attachment issues with anybody and anything... but life must go on and I am so happy to know that she will be 1 step higher now and will definitely have a better life with her new job.

haaayyy my friend... i'll just see you around... thank you so much for being A FRIEND. good luck!!! mmmmuaaaahhhhhuugggss!!! ♥

i never thought....

time flies so fast... it was just last year when I am so damn sad coz the one I wanted doesn't really want to take the friendship into a higher level. It was so sad... I liked him so much. I said to myself he's my one true love... I prayed. I prayed hard. My friends knew all about this. It was also just last year when someone came... he's totally different from the "one true love" i had. He's nice, simple, super friendly and most of all sweet. We dated for the first time. I am not so excited coz my "one true love" is still on my mind. But this someone is so sweet and he really know how to express his feelings towards me... I am now starting to enjoy his company... he became my constant textmate, fonepal, mall buddy and movie date. It was then that I am starting to realize that I am falling for this someone. I am HAPPY. I don't care if he is totally different from the guys that I wanted. It was just then that I realized that I love that someone. We became steady... He never changed. Yes, I feel like I found the man that I've been waiting for. He even managed to face my family. I feel so important and I feel so safe whenever im with him. I knew he's my man and he's mine. We were together for about 10 months and yes on our 10th month we broke up. SAD! SAD! SAD! DAMNN!! why? simply because of him having another woman. It was so painful. That was the first time I had this feeling and I never thought he can do this to me. Yes I am guilty for his reason of not being with him during his out of town trips, etc. but on my part I knew that I even explained this to him even before we went steady and I don't think that is a good reason for infidelity. It hurts big time! He said I am too good for him and he is so unworthy of my love and that he is still enjoying his life (of what? being a womanizer?) darn! The moment I heard this I was so MAD! I can't even write anything about this. Well I guess now that I can even have this post, maybe I am coping up. I am so tired of being sad-- of being mad. I want to end all this and move on.

Yes time flies so fast and I am thankful that for once in my life I met this someone. He made me stronger. He made me realize many things and to that someone, thank you for at least being with me for the past 10 months. Thank you for at least loving me. Thank you for the trust, care and attention. I will surely miss you. You've been part of my life and yes, I loved you so much. I love you but I also love myself. I need to go and move on.....

good luck!

my life :)

mah bday celebration!!!!

ahahaha i had a long birthday celebration... first--- friday, September 29 at esquinita with mah officemates... god i enjoyed their company so much... i love the band.. hehe

2nd celebration--- tagaytay city!!! yey! me and my family had sooooo much fun.. 1st stop, lourdes church to hear mass.. 2nd stop, amira's... 3rd, pink sisters... next in line was lunch at GREEK tavern.. owww the food tastes good! next calleruega church! awwwoooooo hehe nice chapel... then ahhh SPA!!!!!! at sonya's secret garden.. oww so relaxing!!! hehe

mah post bday celebration was here at the absi pantry,, hehe with my Now! Family. thanks guys!

yey! thank u soooo much!! u made my bday truly special!!! mwah!!!!!!!
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manic wednesday!

aaahhhh so many mails.... but we managed to finish it before 3pm.. whew! my eyes are sooo tired.... actually im kinda not feeling well as i have a sore throat... if i remember it right,,, i only had 1 small chocolate last night.... ow well that might be the cause and hmmm also the bad weather! hmp! anyways.... till next post....

monday! monday! monday!

hmmm well.... im sooo happy today,,, why? coz guess what? after sooo many months i was able to finish my work at this early... its 10:20 am and we started our work at 8am,,, short huh? hehe... last saturday.. me and jep watched pirates at G4... well the movie is good..nice effects and awesome production... its quite funny also.. hehe im excited to watch spiderman.. although it will not be shown yet.. :( i can't wait.. hehe long time no posts again.. sowee its because of my busy schedule.. :)

long lost blog

haaay... long time time no posts... hehe actually there's nothin new about me... im still here at work.. just finished my mails... chatting with my friends... haaay yey! tom me and jep will watch superman returns! hahahaha im so excited... hehe

mharge's advance bday celebration at splash island

that was last sunday when mah cousin mharge celebrated her bday at splash island laguna.. we had soooo much FUN!!! see meh? getting darker and darker hehe but still looking forward for another swimming haaay how i wish... before the summer season ends.. hehe

summer... summer... summer @ anilao, batangas

last saturday and sunday, we went to anilao batangas for our 1st summer outing! hmm its me, jepoy, lhen, richard, kharen, albert, mark, aiza and our baby marcmarc.. hehe we had soooo much fun.. actually, we're all looking forward for our next summer outing.. hmmm i'll keep u posted!

dinner at kharen's crib

its kharen, albert, ate marge, marcus, meh, jepoy, ate lhen and marc marc while having our dinner at kharen's house... afterwhich.. have some drinks.. and ofcourse the undying CHIKAZZZZ..... :)

saving forever for you....

I've never been so sure about anything before
But this loving feelingGonna be a feeling
I feel forever moreLooking in your eyes
Tomorrow's all I seeAs long as there's forever babyI will always be...

Saving forever for you...ooh...baby
You are the only one
I'll ever give forever to
Lower the lights I want to...ooh...baby
Wanna always stay together
So I'll be saving foreverFor you

You'll be my world as long as
There's a world turning around
And you'll be my heaven, baby
Till the heavens all come falling down
Look inside my heart
Love is all you'll see
I'll loving you forever baby
Leave it just to me

Saving forever for you...ooh...baby
You are the only oneI'll ever give forever to
Lower the lightsI want to...ooh...baby
Wanna always stay together
So I'll be saving foreverFor you

Forever I'll be loving youI'll be there as long as time passes by
All through it allI'll be standing by you
Looking in your eyes
Tomorrow's all I see
Long as there's forever, babyI will always be...
Needing you here with me

Saving forever for you...ooh...baby
You are the only one
I'll ever give forever to
Lower the lightsI want to...ooh...baby
Wanna always stay together
So I'll be saving foreverFor you

chill......

see us? hehe jepoy and anne at Pier One!.... albert and jep celebrated their bdays!!!!! kewl!

its been so long.... lolz!

hmmm its been so long since the last time i visited my blog.. well im quite busy kc eh.. actually there's nothin' new today except that im so happy this past few weeks.. i dunno why.. hmm i guess its because im now enjoying my work more unlike before.. i have enough money to sustain my gmick needs hehe.. i have a lot of friends.. supportive friends.. my old friends are still there.. haaay what more could i ask for?? oh! there's one thing... a boyfriend! LOLZ! hahahahaha

my first christmas party @ ABS-CBN Interactive

Last December 20, we celebrated our annual Christmas party here at ABS-CBN Interactive.. We had soooo much fun! the foods are all yummy.. Ah love it!hehe the program proper is very cool! as in! Especially when mah officemate moby cracks his famous jokes..nyahaha as in everybody can relate.. although this was my first time celebrating a Christmas party as an employee here at ABS-CBN, i really enjoyed the whole team... it feels like ‘am truly a "kapamilya" here.. hehe LOLZ

christmas party @ music21

last saturday me and mah cousins had our christmas party at music21 in makati.. hehe we had our monito-monita.. i got a cutee pink umbrella from my "daddy" albert... hmmm we also had a bunch of food and drinks... ah love tequilla sunrise hehe.. im proud to say that I sang almost all the songs nyahahaha (frustrated concert queen yata itoh) hehe ofcourse the undying DANCING QUEEN! that's mah fave song for videoke eh... as for our exchange gifts, hmmm.. i got a cutee trifold pink umbrella, jep got a ring from silverworks, lhen got a herbench polo shirt, richard got a shirt from penshoppe, karen got a belt bag from bayo, albert got a cologne from U2, marucs got a shirt from art work and marge got a bath towel from bench body.. haay well that's not a suprise for us since that was included on our wishlists... the only thing we are thinking of before was "who got my name!" hehe that night was so enjoying as in! everybody sang their fave songs! nyahaha after that wonderful videoke, we went to starbucks to have some coffee syempre some are tipsy.. (hmm i guess ako lang yata) hehe before leaving the coffee shop, we are now planning for jep's bday which might be held in tagaytay again.. well hopefully this time, its not raining anymore...